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Hi it is me

Hi. It's me. Not in this picture. But this is me. And that. That right here. That is how lately looks like. And that is also how lately feels. Two hearts pulling me different ways. Two heads that can't decide. Two sets of eyes that are really confused. And two me's who really don't even know who me is.

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Lately hasn't been very free. It hasn't been free for my heart. It hasn't been free for head. Or my eyes. And it defiantly has not been free for me. It is anything but free. It's been hard to breath. Lately is trapping me. And holding me. And lately doesn't want me to go anywhere. But what lately doesn't know is that I do want to go somewhere. I want to go more than somewhere. It is going to be hard for me to go somewhere. When I don't feel very free. But somehow I am going to get there. I don't know how I am going to get there. Or when. But I will. Lately is trying to confuse me. Maybe I am not creative. Maybe I shouldn't be a photographer. Maybe I take horrible pictures. But what lately also doesn't know is that I am confident if it would just move out of the way.

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Turns out lately hasn't been lately. Lately has been for a long time. And it also turns out that lately is someone. That someone is me. I am lately. It has been me all along. I just like to blame and hide from the truth. 

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I am the reason I am not free. I am hesitant. I won't open my heart. I won't open it up to anyone or anything. Not even photography. Photography has been waiting, at least I think it has. Maybe photography is the one I can open up to. Maybe it is what will free me. But there are two sides. I will still have to take a chance. What if I open up and it doesn't free me? What if I regret opening up and it defeats me and discourages me. I will never know. I will never know if photography can free me, if I never try. So photography. So me. That is what I have to say to both of you. I don't know if you can free me but I hope you can. I know I was given creativity with a purpose. And I hope that this creative mind, who is also a trapped and scared and lost mind can be set free by you. Because, I can't miss this chance. I can't let it slide by. Sure, other chances will come. But I believe none of them will be as valuable as this one. I have to take it. I have to open up and just see if it will work. So for a start, here are my written words to help me open up a little. Crap, this is really scary

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Senior Session at Desert Botanical Gardens!

This is Meg. We planned her session the day before. Finalized it the day of. She told me she went home for 20 minutes after school, picked out three outfits, ate a piece of pizza, and then jumped in the car and drove her self 45 minutes to her session. To say I was impressed is an understatement! 

Her beauty- inside and out-shines right through. She truly has a heart for others and she is so easy going! It was a pleasure working with her.

This girl tried to tell me see didn't like getting her picture taken and felt like she "couldn't do it"...ya right. This girl is a MODEL.

It was both of our's first time to the Desert Botanical Gardens and it was so pretty! 

We got some strange looks from people when I was posing her next to groups of cacti, but hey I get weird looks everywhere I go! Haha.

Thank you so much Meg! It was so nice to hang out for a few hours. 

Keep using the talents and gifts God has given you to make a difference for his kingdom.

Alyssa's Portraits

This is Alyssa. I have know her pretty much her entire life and I can not believe she is in 8th grade already.

Oh yes, that was not a typo this gorgeous girl is in EIGHT GRADE!

I'm considering having Alyssa teach me how to curl hair because she clearly has got it down...and well if you know me, I do not. Haha!

I just loved how confident she was at her portrait session! 

Thank you so much Alyssa for letting me take your 8th grade portraits! I pray that you use your gifts and talents to make a difference in other's life as you enter high school! 

Recent Pictures of Wild Child

Wild child. Free spirit. My muse. What ever you want to call her.

We have been doing a lot of shoots together recently and I thought I would just do one blog post of all of them. 

Here's a random shoot in a cute floral dress. I'm so obsessed with her personality-one second she is posing and the next second she is dabing. 

Here's is a shoot we did on international women's day. Ya-she wears bows but have you seen this girl climb a tree or do a push up? 3 years old and she likes to do push ups. Haha I just love her! 

And another shoot I call crazy cat lady. Cat purse + cat shoes + glasses + and her buns. I can't handle her!

And last one for today. A recent shoot with a vintage theme at sunset. Find the outfit here: http://dearcarterclothing.storenvy.com/products/16423254-rose

I hope you all enjoy seeing picture of this sweet little one as much as I do! <3

Lauren + Nate

Lauren + Nate

They got married just a few months after they starting dating in the middle of the flagstaff forest. How freakin' cute are they.

They are so chill and easy going. Also weird and really fun. I need more people like Lauren and Nate in my life.

Ahhhh the light at this location.

I am in love. 

It's the little things.

I've had people tell me that it is dumb that I will take picture of just people's legs, BUT this picture shows who they are. They will be able to look back on this in 20 years, see what they were wearing and remember how much they are in love with each other. And that I what I love detail pictures. 

Did I say I was obsessed with this location. And these two. And their outfits. And personalities. 

This is love. 

Love notes, doing each other's hair, dancing, enjoying life together. 

Thank you Lauren and Nate for being the amazing humans you are. And thank you for letting me capture your love story. 

Shoutout to my homegirls

Here's a quick post on #internationalwomensday to showcase a few of the amazing women in my life, as well as a few I have been privileged to photograph!

Jacie. My precious 3 year old sister. She wants to wear a pink tutu but then she rolls in the dirt and plays with trains. She's stubborn, independent, brave, and wild. 

 

Madison. She's a photographer at a young age. She stands up for what she believes in and has a heart for helping others. She's accepting of everyone.

Heidi. A small business owner. Wife. Mother of 5 ages, 6,4,3,2, and newborn. 

Abby. She embraces her AWESOME hair. Her laugh is contagious. She vlogs her whole life on instagram stories, is hilarious, and doesn't care what others think of her. 

Betsy. Wife. Mom of 5. Foster and adoptive mom. Advocate for her children.

My mom. Foster and adoptive momma. She has take care of over 20 children. Never sleeps. Always caring for others. So strong and compassionate. Always humble and never complains. 

GG. My great grandma. 91 years old. Cuts and colors her own hair and makes her own clothes. Stubborn as heck, independent, strong, and passionate. Christ follower. Lover of people. One of the biggest role models in my life. 

Mia. Model. Actress. Cheerleader. Swimmer. Sister. Daughter. Funny, smart, and confideent.  

I hope today that are inspired by others around you. I hope today you be yourself and stand up for what you believe in. I hope today you choose love, respect, and peace with your actions and words. I pray the same for myself. I feel ever grateful to have these amazing women in my life. 

PS no judging picture quality-a lot of these are old pictures + iPhone pictures. 

Have a great night everyone!!! Love you all! 

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New headshots!

This week (hey, I used to say a couple of weeks ago-I am finally catching up on blog posts) a sweet friend of mine and I took each other's headshots downtown. I have been planning to cut my hair (as I write this 14 inches is now gone) and I wanted some pictures of my hair straightened one more time. This is my favorite location downtown and I am in love with all the pictures we took! 

Here are some pictures sweet Madi took of me. 

Let's just say that I usually like being behind the camera but lately, I have really been enjoying getting out of my comfort zone and getting my own pictures taken. 

And now some pictures of Madi!

Madi has the most contagious joy and she is SO fun to be around. 

Besides taking pictures, I also ran into a construction cone and ripped off my whole side mirror, we went into the Hyatt and rode the glass elevator all 24 floors for no reason, and we stopped at my favorite place in the world, Nami, for some ice-cream. Good times with you Madi, good times. <3

 

You can find Madi on instagram @madisoncantinphotography

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Valarie + Josh

Valarie, another amazing photographer local to Arizona, asked me to take her and her husband's anniversary pictures. Taking another photographer's pictures is SO nerve racking!  She surprised me and showed up with a super cool car (haha notice how I still don't know the name). I LOVE how their pictures turned out and I am so excited to share them with you all. 

Like a river flows surely to the sea
Darling so it goes
Some things are meant to be
So take my hand, and take my whole life too
'Cause I can't help falling in love with you

They wrote love notes for each other.

ALL THE FEELS. 

Thank you for adventuring around the desert with me Valarie and Josh! 

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Mia Rose

Everyone, this is Mia. She is 11 years old and she is a cheerleader, actor, and model. Two of her biggest goals in life are to be on the Ellen show and to meet the singer Becky G. She came up with all of the poses in these pictures on her own. I absolutely love having photoshoots with her. 

She also has her own instagram and you should totally follow her! @princess.miajuarez 

Mommy and Me Lifestyle

A couple of weeks ago, (anyone else notice how I always start my blogs off this way, aka because I am always a few weeks behind) I had the opportunity to photography a sweet blogger mom local to Phoenix. I took pictures of her and her sweet kids just hanging out a their house. These are moments that I know she will want to remember forever. 

If you would like to follow this sweet momma's blog you can find it at www.aubreykinch.com

Friends Shoot

A couple of weeks ago I got the opportunity to hang out with Shelby from @shelbymaryannphoto. We ran all around Scottsdale at a coffee shop, in alleys, and on rooftops. We shot with three super fun seniors. Here are a few pictures from our day. Enjoy. 

Nelson Family

I had the opportunity to work with the Nelson family a few weeks ago, and let me tell you, they are AWESOME. 

They have FIVE kids under the age of 6 and are some of the best parents I have ever met. 

Sucking on your little brother's toe because why not. 

Heidi and Butch did a great job letting their kids BE kids during our photoshoot.

Now people listen, this is my favorite picture from the entire session. Two sisters praying for a hurt knee. Not prompted, 100% their idea. I love how raw and real this is. 

We let the kids make a mess, *I mean make cookies* haha! They had so much fun!

Thanks for letting me hang out with you Nelsons! You guys are so cool!

Ashley + Matt Engagement

Ashley + Matt

Ashley, one of my sweet friends, contacted me for a couple's sessions a few months back. I was so exited to hang with both of them. A week before our session they got engaged so their session turned into an engagement session and I was even more excited. 

He picked out the most perfect ring.

Their joy and love for each other is so apparent and I LOVE IT. 

Thanks for adventuring around the desert with me, love you guys!!!

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Welcoming baby brother

Aside from photography and being a full time college student, I also babysit for the sweetest family. I feel so blessed to have known them the last year and a half. This week, they welcomed home a new baby brother and I was so honored to be at the hospital to capture the kid's meeting their little brother for the first time. 

Making sure momma is doing okay.

Bringing mommy a flower.

Holding baby for the first time.

Big brother gifting his teddy bear that he has had since birth to his new baby brother 

Hiding in case pee goes everywhere during a diaper change

Welcome baby Grayson! 

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Free spirit child

If you follow me on social media, I am sure you have seen this sweet face tons of times.

My little sis/my fav model.

Every time I have a new idea or location to try out, she comes along. Last week I wanted to try out a new location, so of course I had her come along and explore with me. Plus I wanted some pictures of her in a new shirt.

People always ask me how I get her to do this or do that in pictures. Bribery people bribery. But also let's be real, I don't get her to do anything. I usually just let her do whatever she wants and just follow her around. Since she is such a free spirit child, I get some pretty good pictures. She is also pretty dramatic, in fact she calls her self a queen (no interest for princesses just went straight to Queens LOL) and asks when I am going to buy "her" crown. So naturally her shirt is pretty fitting for her big personality. 

Party. Her Crib. 2 A.M. 

It's funny but, it also isn't because she actually never sleeps. She would stay up 24/7 and party if she was in charge. Netflix, panda express, and my little ponies would be involved in that party I guarantee you 100%. 

Normally she has her hair perfectly combed with a bow and a fancy dress or tutu. I love dressing her tom boyish and taking her outside and watching her adventure around. She absolutely loves dressing super girly but she also loves playing in the dirt. 

Moral of the story is I'm obsessed with you child, so please never grow up. 

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